Make up, Wake up, lets cover this rage. Paint on your smile, your mood for today.

Monday, April 26, 2004

brr

Lets see, whats new. I hate living in meadville its osoo fuckin boring. nothing to do at all. the show saturday was great i gained a few new enemies but it happens. Its so nice outside can't believe its supposed to snow. What a fuckin whore mother nature is. I came home early from school cuz my heart is a fuck and needs to just die. No wait it definiteily doesn't need to die lol. I can't wait to get back to school and learn some good old trig and french. those are my nap time classes and u can tell by my grade lol. *shivering* i guess i should put some warmer clothes on. As lacey says i loook like a whore right now cuz i have a tank top on. I really like how my cat tore half his paw off and he drags it around the house and lays on my bed making sure to get the bloody mucus all over. its really nice.

I have ran out of things to say lol. I hope i get to hang with josh and them this weekend. that would be great :)

Posted at 07:11 pm by dearloneliness
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Monday, April 05, 2004

-and the lesson we learn is "dont do drugs kids"

This weekend was nuts. Friday i went over to crocks house to chill and i was planning on going to Grease right afer that, but i had an extreme reaction to penicilin. 2000mg in a small body is not healthy. My face melted and worms crawled out my mouth... only i was the only one who saw it. Amber is a fun girl. I enjoy hanging with her. "chicken chicken chicken, come get your CHIICKEN" lol we are evil. So i got a whole 4 hours of sleep the whole weekend. Didn't sleep well at ambers cuz lacey kept rolling on me cuz the bed tilts lol. not cool. The whole time change has fucked me up hardcore.Didn't sleep well at all! I did get to watch jackass at 2 in the morning though lol. Im one of those people who crawl into bed fully clothed and endup with all clothes off in order to fall asleep. Im itchy. and bored and well u already guess it , im still sick lol.I got gwenny sick though. poor thing. My mom is overally emotional. she turns on lifetime adn expects to not cry and everytime ends up in a pile of tissues leaning into the movie like she can find comfort in the lifetime network. I dont' like my job right now. They keep saying they don't need me at work. so im getting about 4 hours a week. thats bull shit. I need a job where i can actually work and get some hours in. Fuck. Tommorow is the last day until spring break. woohooo. when we come back to school hopefully there will not be police roaming our school and old men, undercover as students . I watched a pretty nasty thing today. some girl getting lypo and tummy tuck and shit, and i relaly didn't care to see what fat looks like. Got a whole shit load of drug free posters. Now my room is A drug free environment. haha funny.

Posted at 05:59 pm by dearloneliness
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Thursday, April 01, 2004

ew its snowing in april.. must be a bad april fools joke

grrr. lazy lazy me. It has been soo long since i have got off my lazy ass and posted on here lol. I sorry, and i apologize sincerly for my lazy ass. My cat is making some kind of crying noise which im guessing is the "Janae will not give me part of her muffin and im pissed" cry. Its snowing outside and im just pretending its a bad april fools joke. damn it. fuckin snow. I hate snow. I had enough of it for 3 damn months. Im going to move away. I don't know where though. hmm maybe i will just move in with olly. hes a little cutey and i can help him take care of daniel*spelling*. Poor thing.
I have strep throat. I think everytime i write in here i have a new illness. Its pretty funny. Hmm this is weird. I kepe getting this weird image thing in my head of 2 fairly similar houses in a cloudy day and 2 african americans running into them. (*now u know im really messed up*) Im on soo much medication im pretty sure i have every right to see weird things like that. I hate when people want to see me on webcam when im sicky. Its just unpleasant lol.

Work is going well like work. I hate dealing with people but i love the idea of money :) So far i have only messed up about 3 times and only worked for like 4 hours lol . My cat attacked my arm earlier today and i just now realized how big of a scratch he left. Bastard. EVERYONE is goign to prom.. but me. lol And this angers me. Its not that i want to go, its that i need someone to party with. So far i know i can party with lacey, and anyone out of high school lol. Me and lacey are the only ones cool enough to not have dates or the willpower to get dressed up and go "dance the nite away" i wuld rather sit on my ass and drink lol. Im so bored. I kinda wish i was allowed in school. well not really lol. If any of this snow sticks im going to shovel it into the neighbors yard. We don't want no damn snow in this yard.Im hungry, my mom is talking on the phone and eating a bowl of soup, bitch should have made me some. lol My hands are freezing! I need someone to come over and cuddle with me and make me warm. nobody will though cuz im contagious and they don't want strep throat :( how lame. If anyone living in a semi nice warm place is reading this feel free to come kidnap me.

Posted at 12:35 pm by dearloneliness
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Tuesday, March 02, 2004

sometimes i fall heavy.. i still hit the ground

ITS WARM OUTSIDE

Finally its semi-warm outside. I have a pretty bad headache and for some reason i was throwing up last nite.I think i ate something that was bad. pry that god damn cream cheese at school.. oh well.

I have a job now :) At the dairy hut. Seems like its going to be fun for a job.. i love food and they seem like some freakin awesome people. I just got done watching " the crow" Damn good movie. I cried. But im emotional, and ill blame it on hormones. I think i might be able to do some of my math homework. pry not but it was worth a shot. there is only alittle bit of snow left... and im half tempted to go out there and shovel it into the neighbors yard lol.

Im supposed to play a show on thursday. Alex's show, but i don't think i will be able to :( and its sad. I can't rely on tom to watch my little sister, so i will have to be the adult and be here for her. I got to see a baby yesterday. Well i held it and talked to it too, but then it got annoying. His name is jacob and hes only 2 months old! I actually enjoyed seeing a baby.. but lets blame that on the hormones too. I havent' talked to stephie for a while. maybe she hates me and wants me to die.. not cool i know. Im having a deep conversation with joh and its amazing me how fuckin deep i can be at noon.

I went to the hangout for the first time on saturday. Almost shot myself lol. Only good thing about it was that i got to see beaver... even if it was while listening to some loud speaker spat out the words "GODS GRACE, GODS GRACE" Yes... scary. I made it thru it though cuz i was hella tired... I felt bad though cuz beaver wanted me to be alive and i was just well dead in the head. So i wasted another time seeng him. *slaps self on head* ... stupid me.
My cats on crack, it carries around cigarrette packs in its mouth and even sleeps with them. I think he needs the patch

Posted at 12:21 pm by dearloneliness
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Friday, February 20, 2004

another distant day

Grr.. i have yet to actually write in here in consecutive days. Oh well i guess u all think its just cuz im so busy.. but nope.. its relaly ucz im lazy. Im just sitting here listening to yellowcard (thanks annie for the great song) and trying to figure out how i got this cold sore. Sometimes i get really angry when my brother comes over. He acts like he rules.. i wanna kick his ass sometimes lol I heart my sparkle motion girls. So many good times lol. So i just had a sparkle motion meeting and lemme tell u, it was great. Anywho i have nothing else to write about. Maybe sometime i will keep writing in here every day ... or not.

Posted at 10:12 pm by dearloneliness
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Monday, February 09, 2004

*coughing*

today was aight i guess. i woke up to my chinchilla running around my room because she managed to escape her cage though half the time i can't even figure out how to open the damn thing. So i got up for school and tripped on every animal because they just happen to be right in my path when im still half way asleep. I got to wait out for my bus which was ten minutes late as the plow guy checked me out and every bus in meadville came past but mine lol. 10 min later and 20 degrees colder i managed to get on the bus. Then i had to deal with the 14 yr old ugly ass boy who decided to give me dirty looks because i supposably sat in his seat. but the ramones saved me from him :) I was hyper as all hell when i got to school thanks to a large cup of coffee. Now im hacking my lungs up and chillin here in my undies. i really despise pants
Say no to pants

Posted at 04:32 pm by dearloneliness
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